I retire!
And now bigger things...it's been quite a stressful time of late as me and my girl are still awaiting word on our fate, as far as jobs and moving goes. It's been about 5 weeks since our staff firing and since then we have experienced a roller coaster of emotions, ranging from excitement to worry to whatever is meant to happen will happen, and so on. And it is fairly easy to tell yourself you should be one way and to relax and that whatever is happen is meant to happen but it really is much harder to really live that. I think this is a good learning experience though because I've learned that you really shouldn't put pressure on yourself or add worries to your relationship related to a job based on things that you really can't control. So this has been a long waiting period and I do believe something good will happen and we'll look back on this time and think, wow, why were we so worried, look at how terrific everything has happened since that time because of that! I think that's what we'll say then but whoa nellie, the unknown is exciting yet VERY nervewrecking! But I must say my dearest girl, Beez, has handled everything so well! Poor girl got thrown into the football coaches world of fire and has risen like the good attituded, flexible, and strong willed girl I knew she was. I am SOOO lucky to have a wonderful future wifey!!!! And I've also learned how much periods suck for girls...and that gatorade and salt tabs don't help get rid of her cramps! Sorry, I didn't know!
And time is coming for my Pops to either get the Redskins job or not! It's so funny to think that in like 2 days our whole world of occupation and where we live and everything else could...or could not be changed by 1 guys decision. I hope so badly that he gets the job that he desires so much but I must say, and this is what I was talking about earlier, that it is either meant to be or not meant to be and either way our lives will adjust and go on just as happily with other opportunities hopefully in store. I rememeber hwow torn I was coming to Baltimore or not from New Mexico and wondering if my life would change for the better or worse...and I think if you have confidence in yourself then you have to believe that the decisions you make are going to be the right ones...and I trust myself and I know the hard decision I have to make in the future will be the right decisions...because I trust myself. So all in all, this is a great time to reflect and learn how to cope with insecurity with a job but maintain perspective and know how great it is to share these experiences with someone I truly love...I think it has and will make us stronger! That, I know, is good!